Flashing back

I knew it had been around a week that I doesnt update my blog..
Everyone seems lost a contact with me..

Im busy with a lot of stuffs last week..
Be with my classmate all the time..
The make those assignments and presentations up..

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AB ANG..
Im really disappointed with it..
Few days past..
Its kinda sorrow for me..
Till now..
I cant even forgive myself about the lost..

Im doubting..
Am i a perfectionist..
I feel so lucky that there are just few of the classmate in the class..
when Im presenting..
I feel so shame..
Shame on u..

I did tried to memorize all the stuffs..
but why..
I did it at home..
But i forget all of it over the class..

"erm..erm..erm.."

What the hell..
Its not my best..
I doesnt did my best..
I know i can did it better..

Everyone tried to comfort me..
But I knew..Im worst like shit..
Sorry Nelson..
You taught me a lot..
But..
I just....
made u disappointed..

My tears flowing..
That its out of control..
Everyone saw me cried..
After i sat down..
Shameful..

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On we went Feeling Cafe on Wednesday..
And Pasar malam+Little Tree on Thursday..

And I argued with my spouse on Friday..
That hurt me deeply..
And made me cried like hell..
Its like been abandoned over the street that time..
Something feels like a wild cat..

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I still need someone to let me lie on..
Dai gor..kanex..
Thanks for the caring..
You guys were there, when i need it..

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